I have been claming empolyment and suport allowance for the past few months now and I am really worried about my future. Since leaving my specalist college in July, I feel I have been abandoned by the system and have been leaft to fend for my self. In September, I found myself in a mainstream college with no support for an SEN dep witch lead me to drop the course I was on.
With a mixture of Aspergus syndrome and mental health problems (Anxiety And Depression) My self esteam dropped, I felt like I couldn't leave the house by myself and my famaliy fell out me (I don't want to go into the reasons why). Just before the new year we cleared things up and tried to make steps forward. I started to clam ESA in January, but now my assesment is in just over a weeks time (2nd of April to be exact) I am worried I'm going to be judged, stripped of all my dignity and forced into a work placement that I feel is not right for me or when I'm not ready.
I do want to work. I hate myself for relying off the state! But I feel my condiction will hold me back and what ever deision is made I'm going to be worse off. Has anyone been in a similar to myself and can other anyhelp, or can anyone at all help, or am I just a lost cause?