I've always had a hard time opening up too people and talking about feelings and i also have a hard time talking to someone i don't know, it takes me a long time to get comfortable around people. I started drinking heavily around 2010 when i left college, most of my friends were off to university and i didn't know what i wanted to do with my life. I had a hard time coming to terms with the fact that my life was not structured anymore, from 2010 to 2012 i rarely left my house, the only time i ever left the house was to visit family members or to get alcohol. Around 2013 i cut down on the alcohol significantly, i signed up for the job centre and started going out quite often with a few friends i met on a gaming forum, I quickly found going to the job centre too much it was overcrowded and a loud atmosphere and i disliked going there. I was on and off the job centre after that (mostly because i was late or forgot an appointment or just couldn't be [***]ed to go) I started drinking heavily again around the end of 2013 because i found out my friends from high school was just using me. I can't remember much about 2014 because i drank a lot of alcohol during the year and quickly spent the inheritance that my grandmother spent her whole working life saving up for me. 2015 was a particularly bad year, my aunt who i was very very close to (and the only person that i was able to tell her that i loved her) died from cancer, around the middle of 2015 i also started using drugs thanks to my gaming friends (FYI: We are no longer friends) I was quickly addicted to cocaine and heroin and had regular arguments with certain family members. I cleaned my act up in July 2016 and around early December i signed back up to the job centre and hven't missed an appointment since, on ( i think) May 30th 2017 i started my first job working for a wood recycling company and i'm currently enjoying my life for the first time in years. I have the occasional slip up and go on a boozy bender but other than that i'm doing quite good. I've started going to counselling sessions for depression & anxiety and my alcohol & drug addiction, so i won't have and more slip ups, but i'm not sure it's for me. I rarely speak during the hour that i have with my counsellor i just think it's a waste of time, she recently brought up the subject about the [******] childhood that i had, and it really [****]ed me off to the point where i said "*** it" to going back for another session. If i didn't make a promise to my eldest sister i would't go back. SO I'M ASKING THIS QUESTIONS! Does anyone find counselling to be good for them?
Edited by Nellie-Mod