Ok well lots to tell,my youngest daughter went into hospital last nite and today had a lovely baby boy,both doing well,went visiting tonight and emotions all over the shop, So first thing this morning I am pacing about like any caring parent but in my mind I am worried and then angry at not knowing what is going on,then I am tearful imagining the worst.I try to find a distraction so log onto this forum, I find myself being unusually kind and telling those who deserve it how nice and caring they are, I don't as a rule tell people that sort of thing as it comes out a bit mushy,a bit over the top! But I just see how caring or understanding they are and feel compelled to tell them, if I don't then they will go unnoticed,
I am not known for showing affection, but since believing I am autistic I have allowed myself to take a chance in showing my emotions,I hope I get it right and may hold back or re read my response and delete bits just in case. So far it seems to be ok. I have received one or two comments from my workmates! Well the ones I have hugged, I explain that it's the real me and they kind of say"ok no problem" they react differently depending how long they have known me,most they say"it explains a lot mate" or "no problem".
I have told one female at work I am probably autistic to which she said "no you aren't as I went to school with autistic children as I am dyslexic" in her country any child with a learning difficulty attended the same school. I then told her she only knew the persona I wanted her to see,or what I thought she would want to see.after telling her who I really was and my childhood challenges she very quickly said " you as so right as I have many friends who are just like that" I asked her if it would be inappropriate to give her a hug? She said that would be acceptable but you asking has convinced me you are within the autism spectrum. She asked me why I wanted a hug, my reply"because you are a very down to earth person who has her eyes wide open" I told her I wouldn't hug her in front of others,I suggested we shake hands knowing it meant a hug.
