Hi,
I'm fairly newish to the forum.
I just feel quite depressed at the moment. I feel as if the world is like the sparkly stuff in a paperweight and my aspergers is the glass - im always on the outside looking in. I wouldn't say I have autism to an extent where it would be noticeable with work colleagues or something, but it is noticeable with my family, whom I live with. I find it very difficult and upsetting most of the time because my aspergers means that I can't understand sometimes why people get mad with me, or how I've made them mad at me, so I can avoid doing so next time. My parents don't help in these situations because they get frustrated themselves and start talking to me in a derogatory way and speaking slowly, as if I were a child. Coupled with the fact that I seem to have a poor memory, I lose confidence because despite my attempts to become better educated I seem to always be two steps behind everyone else on the knowledge front. All of this combined just leaves me feeling very depressed the majority of the time. I don't really talk to anyone outside my family as I'm rubbish at making friends as well. Basically I can't do anything. At all. I would love to be able to have friends, have a great job and be a much more confident, thin person who is good and talented at something, but I guess life just isn't like that. Sorry. Just a bit upset at the moment.
wonder if anyone can relate.