Hi, I'm not sure if this is the right place to post or not.
I've got three sons, two of whom have been diagnosed as autistic (one with ADHD as well). It's around five years since we got the first diagnosis and since then my husband and I have thrown ourselves into learning and providing the best environment for our boys to grow up in ... they're (all three) amazing young lads and I'm immensely proud of them.
However, the more I learn and the more meetings we go to the more I'm convinced that I have autism myself. My husband agrees with me ... I show so many autistic traits and have so many similar struggles to my children. I'm not sure what to do. I'm in my mid-40s and don't feel that I need a diagnosis other than to help me understand myself (if that makes sense).
I think I'd struggle to get a diagnosis as I hide my traits well (I think) ... I struggle with eye-contact but have trained myself to cope with it. I struggle in social situations but have taught myself so many coping mechanisms over the years that often folks don't realise I'm struggling. I have meltdowns but restrict them to when I'm on my own or with my hubby ... my husband and sons are the only people who truly see the real me. I'm not sure if I should pursue a diagnosis and, if so, how to go about it? Thanks :-)