Hi,
Wondering if anybody can help me. I haven't officially been diagnosed with it, but I have a letter from a psych stating I have obvious AS traits (in his words 'because you're not beating people up, or needing a stint in a MH hospital, I can't refer you, you're not severe enough') but I feel like I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I understand why I react like I do, but in the last couple of days I have become so stressed it's unbelievable. My problems are as follows:
*My fiancé lives in a different country. He also lives with his two children, who he is the main carer for, and his ex. This is obviously restricting the time we can spend together, and with the ex still living in the family home & showing no signs of moving out, I can't spend time with him in his place.
*I am trying to get a job nearer my fiancé. But there is nothing available. The skill set I have & the job I want to do is based in my country, not in his.
*My family have been through the toughest of tough times recently - family deaths, family arguments, everything. We are trying to repair the damage but it's going to be a long road.
*I am starting to get increasingly stressed at work. Part of my role is to speak to people, but I find I am getting more short tempered with them. The role I have been placed in is because I can no longer cope with the role I had originally. My Occupational Health are involved but they are worse than useless, and I have to demonstrate an ability I can't in this role, in order to move (catch-22).
*One of my close family is on their deathbed and I am just waiting for the phone call to say they have died & it will be my third funeral in the year.
*I am drinking far more than I should be in order to try & cope with all this & I know I can't carry on like this.
All of this is putting me on the verge of a breakdown/serious meltdown & I'm just wondering if anybody else had had experience of any or all of the above, or has been on the verge of a breakdown & what helped you. I am absolutely desperate for help so anything you can suggest will make a difference, no matter how small.
Thanks,
SgtR
