Please help

Hi everyone

Please help. I´m going through diagnosis at the moment and am expecting the results of some tests within a week or so. My problem is that I am suffering huge anxiety and panic. I have waves and waves of anxiousness turning my stomach over, I´m incredibly angry, I´m stimming constantly and I nearly burst into tears in work. I am physically in pain and close to tears again right now.

It´s not even as though I´m 100% sure I´m on the spectrum although it makes perfect sense to me.

Basically I need to get calm somehow and I´m not sure how but I need to try to do it quickly. I´ve already called in sick for tomorrow after only being back at work one day.

Any advice would be hugely appreciated.

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  • Hi Gingerman

    Thanks for your comments, support and suggestions. They are very helpful.

    I´m a bit better this morning although I now have peace and quiet. Any stressors could make things worse again. I´m particularly paranoid after calling in sick to work last night and having to let some colleagues know this morning. I don´t have a great sick record and thinking about it doesn´t help. I´ve also recently taken on line management which I realise now is a big mistake but I´m not sure how to go back on that. There is a potential confrontation coming up there and I don´t like it at all.

    I´ve never been a fan of taking meds, but just as a personal choice. I don´t like the thought of getting them wrong and causing more problems for myself. Also, I don´t know if they would address the root cause of the problem. However, I´m wondering whether to change my mind considering the levels of stress I´m experiencing right now.

    I´m also not 100% sure how I feel about diagnosis. I´ve always been searching for solutions to myself and if it turns out I´m on the spectrum then I´ll have to make a lot of changes to make my life more manageable. At the moment I can´t see how that is going to happen. One step at a time I guess.

    A positive is due to having kids, as my life generally revolves around a strict routine, for which the only stressful bit is not getting any time alone. I tend to herd my kids around like cattle, barking out orders and getting them to do things straight away. My eldest is beginning to rebel a little against this, but I do also make time to spend with them at the end of the night.

    Ok, I´m a writer without a cause now. I shall go and make some music in my studio and see where that gets me. Thanks for reading.

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  • Hi Gingerman

    Thanks for your comments, support and suggestions. They are very helpful.

    I´m a bit better this morning although I now have peace and quiet. Any stressors could make things worse again. I´m particularly paranoid after calling in sick to work last night and having to let some colleagues know this morning. I don´t have a great sick record and thinking about it doesn´t help. I´ve also recently taken on line management which I realise now is a big mistake but I´m not sure how to go back on that. There is a potential confrontation coming up there and I don´t like it at all.

    I´ve never been a fan of taking meds, but just as a personal choice. I don´t like the thought of getting them wrong and causing more problems for myself. Also, I don´t know if they would address the root cause of the problem. However, I´m wondering whether to change my mind considering the levels of stress I´m experiencing right now.

    I´m also not 100% sure how I feel about diagnosis. I´ve always been searching for solutions to myself and if it turns out I´m on the spectrum then I´ll have to make a lot of changes to make my life more manageable. At the moment I can´t see how that is going to happen. One step at a time I guess.

    A positive is due to having kids, as my life generally revolves around a strict routine, for which the only stressful bit is not getting any time alone. I tend to herd my kids around like cattle, barking out orders and getting them to do things straight away. My eldest is beginning to rebel a little against this, but I do also make time to spend with them at the end of the night.

    Ok, I´m a writer without a cause now. I shall go and make some music in my studio and see where that gets me. Thanks for reading.

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