Hi,
I've not been formally diagnosed (so might not even be in the right place) but this forum seems friendlier than others I've been on.
I've had lots of problems in my job but seem to have been settling in finally after nearly two years.
This week I was working on my own when I noticed a manager poking their head round the corner laughing at me. I then realised that I had been talking under my breath. I do this sometimes when I'm bored or it's too quiet and I don't even realise I'm doing it, I also don't know what I say when I do this. I think he heard me and that's why he was laughing and I'm really embarrassed. Another person at work heard me muttering to myself a little while ago but I just laughed and said I was singing.
Now after being bullied when I first started and just feeling like I'm getting settled in this has happened and I'm worried that it's going to give people ammunition if it gets around to others. It has been obvious to people that I was having mental health problems last year and people took advantage of that, I feel, by telling me I was imagining that people had said I was stupid, when I clearly heard them say it. I think this will be another reason for people to think that I'm unreliable and unstable.
Does anybody else have a problem like this/had a problem like it?
I have been seeing a psychologist for a few months after planning suicide last year and she screened me for ADHD and ASD, I came out with a low "positive" score on both and she had to convince the adult clinic to add me to their year long waiting list (I'm in my 30s). I've been feeling a bit up and down but mostly better recently and I don't want to go back to the way I felt last year 'cause of this. I have a 6 year old so I need to be at my best for him.
Does anyone have any advice on this subject pleae.