Does any one here hate christmas?

I really wish that I could hibernate. This time of year has nothing to commend itself to me. I hate the dark, cold, grey days of winter. Most of the family I have lost died in winter. The worst bullying I experienced was in the run up to christmas and at christmas work social events. Before I retired, I used to look forward to some time off work and to overindulging in food and drink. I am now more health concious, and always used to hate the mixture of hangovers and that dreadful moment of getting on the scales in January to see what damage I had done.

I think I come from an autistic family. The more I read, the more asd traits I remember in my parents. They wouldn't take part in Christmas when they became older. They had a bare minimum of contact with the outside world, once they retired. I am not as unsociable as they are, but christmas has too much socialising and even the nicest of pubs is noisy and overcrowded.

January had a strange effect, in that I would become hyperactive, crash diet, and decide I could survive by will power alone. I would focus entirely on my goals until the horrible moment of realisation came, that I was trampling over everyones feelings and great waves of resentment were hitting me from everyone I knew. I would then crawl away and hide until the worst was past. By the end of February, life would return to normal and I could look forward to spring.

Is there anything nice about this time of year?

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  • i find christmas very hard. i have alot of family away. i miss my animals that were my family that passed away-they were my life and i can't explain how much they meant to me. and i find having relatives that have aspergers as well as me very hard to cope with, so i am at crisis point most of the day, climbing the walls with stress and anxiety. i also get dissapointed badly too-causing me to become severely hypersensative. i find that if i surround myself with my animals-which keeps me busy, the day has meaning. going for a walk, using my rowing machine,using this community, gives the day purpose too. i do find that if the weather is gloomy- i always tell myself that at some point at least in the week, the weather becomes crisp and bright like today. The birds have been in the garden and i refuse to indulge,which can make you feel worse. and i have my g.p appointment in a few weeks too.

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  • i find christmas very hard. i have alot of family away. i miss my animals that were my family that passed away-they were my life and i can't explain how much they meant to me. and i find having relatives that have aspergers as well as me very hard to cope with, so i am at crisis point most of the day, climbing the walls with stress and anxiety. i also get dissapointed badly too-causing me to become severely hypersensative. i find that if i surround myself with my animals-which keeps me busy, the day has meaning. going for a walk, using my rowing machine,using this community, gives the day purpose too. i do find that if the weather is gloomy- i always tell myself that at some point at least in the week, the weather becomes crisp and bright like today. The birds have been in the garden and i refuse to indulge,which can make you feel worse. and i have my g.p appointment in a few weeks too.

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