Help needed please

AnneMargaret, please don't despair.  Nomatter how awful you think things are or how low you think you've sunk - someone, somewhere has been there and managed through it.  In fact I think that might be a helpful way to think of your troubles - that you are managing through them, that they will pass.  The tunnel may seem long and unending, but it isn't.  You are still very young and there is a whole life ahead of you.  Think of all the good you can do in the world, and all that you can achieve!  Maybe you are experiencing things for a reason but will only understand that later on? 

I hope your GP is helpful.  If not, try again.  Can you see a different doctor in your practise?  Maybe you need to try a few to work out which one is more in tune with your condition.  Doctors have their favourite subjects and some are more understanding than others.  If you have a diagnosis then they should immediately be on your side. You have a well known and recognised condition.

You sound as though you need to upgrade your coping mechanism from self harm to something more healthy.  It may well be a slow process.  The intensity of emotion becomes so overwhelming that only physical pain will ease it or negate it.  You will have clearly tried other things but at the point of need, nothing else comes close.  There are trained experts in this area who are very understanding.  I hope your GP refers to you one.

In the meantime, try to keep tabs on your state of emotion through the day before it all gets too much.  Build in treats for yourself - walks in the park, trips to the library, bubble baths, whatever and make sure you fully enjoy them.  The aim is to keep the bucket of emotion from overflowing by regularly tipping it out a bit!

Good luck - and know that you are not alone. x

AnneMargaret, please don't despair.  Nomatter how awful you think things are or how low you think you've sunk - someone, somewhere has been there and managed through it.  In fact I think that might be a helpful way to think of your troubles - that you are managing through them, that they will pass.  The tunnel may seem long and unending, but it isn't.  You are still very young and there is a whole life ahead of you.  Think of all the good you can do in the world, and all that you can achieve!  Maybe you are experiencing things for a reason but will only understand that later on? 

I hope your GP is helpful.  If not, try again.  Can you see a different doctor in your practise?  Maybe you need to try a few to work out which one is more in tune with your condition.  Doctors have their favourite subjects and some are more understanding than others.  If you have a diagnosis then they should immediately be on your side. You have a well known and recognised condition.

You sound as though you need to upgrade your coping mechanism from self harm to something more healthy.  It may well be a slow process.  The intensity of emotion becomes so overwhelming that only physical pain will ease it or negate it.  You will have clearly tried other things but at the point of need, nothing else comes close.  There are trained experts in this area who are very understanding.  I hope your GP refers to you one.

In the meantime, try to keep tabs on your state of emotion through the day before it all gets too much.  Build in treats for yourself - walks in the park, trips to the library, bubble baths, whatever and make sure you fully enjoy them.  The aim is to keep the bucket of emotion from overflowing by regularly tipping it out a bit!

Good luck - and know that you are not alone. x