I hate that im going through Burnout right now. There is so much that i need to do, but because im burntout, I've got no engery whatsover. My brain seems to be miles behind me. It hurts to even move, i dont have the strength to eat or drink, im tired all the time, even sleeping isn't enough, resting isnt enough, nothing is enough.
It feels like my entire body is on fire and when i walk, its like im walking on fire, shards of glass or walking on wire brushes. To make it even worse, its the time of year that i hate the most. You've got halloween, bonfire night and the "hell" that is christmas. With halloween, its the decorations and random people knocking on the door, Bonfire night is all the fireworks going off at random times and the pure sight of them, winds me up, not to mention a total waste of money. Im more sensitive to light and sound during burnout, every little noise seems to be extremely loud - it just sucks
Then we get to Christmas, the worst holiday ever in my opinion. Where do i even begin?? the "fake" happiness, the forced smiles, the horrible noise that is unwrapping the presents the feel of the decorations, the site of the Christmas lights.
I also find that my tolerance to my Sensory Sensitivities is a lot lower than "normal". I just want to sleep and rest as much as possible. Even going into my Special interests (my current one is researching and watching Yugoslavian Football from 1946 - 1992) isn't distracting me like it normally does, it even seems to much for me to do that!.
Im more sensitive to light and sound during burnout, every little noise seems to be extremely loud - it just sucks