Hello,
I have come onto hear to seek some guidance as to what a potential 'late diagnosed' might be able to do.
I turned 50 last week but all that time, I've had concerns about not fitting in and not being the "square peg in a world of square holes".
In my school days I was badly bullied. I had problems making friends (I did have 2 or 3 who understood me), but I was ridiculed by many. Jokes and innuendos would by flying round and everyone laughing at them, but I'd be like "What was funny about that".
In later life I've started to have problems with my marriage. I have a beautiful wife and a six year old IVF boy, but there's something causing issues and friction. Examples might include a small argument - I end up going into some form of neuroparalysis where my brain is fully aware of what it wants to say, but I can't physically say it! It's like someone has muted me for a few minutes. I also seek comfort and retreat, even as a 50 year old man, by saying I'm going to bed, but then wrapping myself completely from head to toe tightly in a furry throw.
Does this sound like the behaviour of someone who has fought to reach 50 by trying to mask their traits, but might actually be fighting the spectrum? It's creating untold problems for me now, both mentally and in terms of relationships.
Thanks for any advice in advance.
