I’m an adult autistic female who feels a great deal of anxiety, just THINKING about working. Or to be more precise, thinking about dealing with PEOPLE, and feeling a sense of judgment with how I’d perfom a task. From offerings you and I see, it’s about customer service and dealing with people. If I have to interface, SURE, fine. But, why can’t I easily find a job where I can be out of the way, preparing simple materials? For example, I did a volunteer credit consisting of cutting and laminating worksheets, for my Special Needs brother’s classmates. If I could get paid to do something like that, I’d likely jump on it. For some people, especially other neuro-divergent people, they have sensory issues and may not be able to deal with fast-paced, chaotic work environment.
Generally for anxiety, dealing with people- and especially Karens, can be stress-inducing! For me, I luckily have not encountered anything REAL bad with them. But, when I used to work in utility at a grocery store, one elderly woman had seemed rather impatient and crabby. She could have been going through something, maybe it had to do with age. But, it was enough riddle my anxiety and make me tear up, and I hid in the restroom to gather myself.
I see things about marketing, communciation, using these websites, and it can be a turn-off for me. And, I’ll be frank and vulnerable here, I have s**cide ideations at times. I think about my life, doing well on my own and I ever would prosper. I’ve looked also to manfestiation techniques, because I’m trying to be a mother freakin’ millionare; have a bag money randomly show up in my line of sight, win HUGE in the lottery, yes.
Crossing a bit into spirtuality and stuff here, I personally do think we’re in some type of simulation. When you look into it, you’ll likely hear of awakenings and how you are one with the universe, essentially. I’m more on the spiritual side of existence, certainly. I’m no expert, so I would refrain from going to me for sound advice, heh. But, one of the big and common ideas with manifesting and spirtuality (at least what I’ve gathered), is…the universe is a reflection of you. YOU are one with the universe. I…struggle with this concept at times, because we are stuck within a system of captailism and making money, paying to LIVE. But even then, a 9–5 job is not enough. But, this perhaps can be a topic for another time.
To basically finish this off… why don’t we campaign to have more diversity out there, for people like myself? I hate that we can’t genuinely do what we want AS a full-time occurence, in our life. Some people make it seem like it’s a piece of cake.
I also hope that if what they say is true, that when you’re in the process of shifting timelines (more spiritual talk) and it gets dark, that SOMETHING will be waiting on the other side of the road; something positive and life-changing, for the ultimate good. I hope LeapWithLo on Instagram is onto something, and it seems like she is. If you don’t know who she is, she’s someone who appeared to have manifested what the hell she wanted, makes good money, and travels whenever and wherever she desires. She went from quitting her job on a whim, with only about $200 in her bank account and barely affording rent…to seemingly a life of gold.
I want that. Believe me, I’ve tried imagining what it would be like if my family and I struck gold. I’ve been getting back into Charlie And The Chocolate Factory (also having revisisted the ’71 movie, and in my opinion, the ’05 film is my preference) lately. Arguably, they were in a more harder predicament with life, than me and my family are. But, after a couple let-downs with the golden ticket Willy Wonka had sent, Charlie did in-fact freaking score. And in the end, he and his family were better-off. I still live with my family, and I’m aiming to have us strike our golden ticket. Sorry to get corny there, but damn it, that is my ultimate goal, right now. That’s why I also kinda turned to manfesting, and doing ‘money spells’.
I'm trying.
[Separate note than on Medium] I actually decided to join the National Autistic Society website, upon searching up anybody who may feel the same or similar about what I just broached, here. I can't remember their name, but somebody else on here actually seemed to have essentially the same views as me, on working and functioning in the kind of world we live in. So, if anyone else is in the same or similar thinking process as me, feel free to let me know that!
