Depression

Hi my name is David [edited by mod to remove personal information].

I'm a 21 year old university of salford student currently living in manchester

as the subject says I am suffering from major depression and thought this might be the best place to talk about it as I feel like people don't understand what its like to be autistic and depressed.

I feel rather alone because despite the fact I have friends I have never romantically connected with anyone.

I also feel like im playing a balancing act between what I want and what other people expect of me

for example I got into a massive arguement with someone when I was in college because they said I moaned too much I was not aware I was doing in and as such I repress a lot of my bad emotions

It seems to be causing me problems however such as problems getting to sleep and bursting out into tears at the drop of a hat

I thank you for taking the time to read this and was wondering if anyone had any advice whether its direct of someone who I could talk to

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  • LivAgain, you have perfectly summed up how my attempts to access treatment for depression have gone. People are quick to assume that autism causes our depression, but no is willing to admit that it is much more complicated than that. It is almost as if we are not always seen as complex human beings, instead being treated as if our emotions and personalities are "limited" just because we have autism. I am so tired of being treated like I'm a lesser being than other people just because I have a different way of processing information.

    David, I recommend looking at different ways to access treatment for your depression in your area. I know people are usually urged to access treatment through their GP, but this can have many pitfalls. Many GPs are under-trained in the subject of depression and so take the easy route of palming you off with anti-depressants. Often, this will not actually do much good without counselling to go with the medication. It may be best to see if you can self-refer for care under your local mental health team. That way you may get more personalised treatment. I hope this helps, and good luck!

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  • LivAgain, you have perfectly summed up how my attempts to access treatment for depression have gone. People are quick to assume that autism causes our depression, but no is willing to admit that it is much more complicated than that. It is almost as if we are not always seen as complex human beings, instead being treated as if our emotions and personalities are "limited" just because we have autism. I am so tired of being treated like I'm a lesser being than other people just because I have a different way of processing information.

    David, I recommend looking at different ways to access treatment for your depression in your area. I know people are usually urged to access treatment through their GP, but this can have many pitfalls. Many GPs are under-trained in the subject of depression and so take the easy route of palming you off with anti-depressants. Often, this will not actually do much good without counselling to go with the medication. It may be best to see if you can self-refer for care under your local mental health team. That way you may get more personalised treatment. I hope this helps, and good luck!

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