making decisions and new beginnings

Something I find myself thinking about quite a lot is making decisions about whether or not to do the thing, whatever the thing may be. There is much that I choose not to do because I fear it will be too much and could result in becoming overwhelmed or, worst case scenario, having a meltdown. And yet I don't want to completely cut myself off from the world. This is particularly on my mind at the moment because I am currently applying for a new job that would mean moving to a new place where I don't know anyone and making a totally new start. It could be the beginning of an exciting new chapter in my life, or it could be putting myself in a vulnerable situation where I don't know anyone and have no safety net. I am planning to travel upcountry for an interview on Monday. So, as you can imagine, I am more than a bit spun out by this. 

 I am curious to see if any of this resonates with you and would love to hear your thoughts.

  • When you travel for your interview take some time to have a look around, find out what's in your potential new area, what are the best places to live, what are the fascilities for ND people there, what comunity hubs and things are there. Are there groups around who cater for your interests?

    Sometimes making a new start can be liberating, making new friends and meeting new people would allow you to start out as your authentic self with nobody dragging you back to what you were or who they think you should be.

    I've moved around the country lived in different places where I've known no one or only one person, I've never had a safety net of people willing to help and support, I've mostly had people who will kick when I'm down and I've had to haul myself back by sheer stubborness, if I have persistant demand avoidance, which I don't think I do, then it's to refuse to stay down and die.