I completely get it honestly ive been on this earth 32 years and i still feel so alone even after finding out my family on my mums side is autistic were all on differant levels my cusin is super smart im proud of him but he actracts people to him like a magnet hes so good with social interactions.
Where im not i have a very small cycle of friends and when im betrayed by one its completely devistating and i have one friend who is very toxic im being forced to stop being autistic because i keep being smart im at a point where im melting down so slow and long i dunno what the out come will be point is find one of us if u dont ur likely to find somebody like my friend who will make u feel like ur the problem.
Id happily be ur "pen pall" if u wish just to text to and stuff but trust me u need someone who is also autistic that values loyalty and true friendship