Hello. I struggle with hyper awareness when I am unmasked, like seeing calculus on walls, being able to feel everybody around me, piece 300 bites of information together in my brain simultaneously, hyper awareness of my own body and emotions too. Then when I get dysregulated I become a normal person, then slightly more dysregulated I become non verbal and barely able to function. I feels like going from a genius level IQ to a normal IQ, then a 70 IQ.
This is the more frustrating thing for me about myself system, the level my brain can function at is incredible, yet its 'goes to ***' when I try to communicate it with other people or socialize with other people. Just wonder if anyone else experiences this and if it is normal. Thanks. Only time this doesn't limit me is when I am talking with my spiritual mentor who is also neurodivergent and we can communicate energetically and see what each others brains are creating.