I was invited to a BBQ. I knew some people there but not everyone. I had a few one to one conversations. I sat by myself and ate some food. A few people came & spoke to me but I just felt like I was keeping them away from others. I left after 1.5 hours. I felt more alone among people then I do at home alone.
It makes me wonder if I should bother again but I also have moments where I feel horribly alone at home. I dont have anyone there just for me.
Excellent that you made the effort and attended alone give yourself credit for being there.
I can relate to this experience….it’s tough and I know how much it hurts.
I understand that you feel like you would be better staying at home alone but I don’t think it’s a good idea to be isolated.
You will cross paths with your kind of person eventually who will make you feel like the most interesting person in the room.
Take care of yourself 
Excellent that you made the effort and attended alone give yourself credit for being there.
I can relate to this experience….it’s tough and I know how much it hurts.
I understand that you feel like you would be better staying at home alone but I don’t think it’s a good idea to be isolated.
You will cross paths with your kind of person eventually who will make you feel like the most interesting person in the room.
Take care of yourself
