I was invited to a BBQ. I knew some people there but not everyone. I had a few one to one conversations. I sat by myself and ate some food. A few people came & spoke to me but I just felt like I was keeping them away from others. I left after 1.5 hours. I felt more alone among people then I do at home alone.
It makes me wonder if I should bother again but I also have moments where I feel horribly alone at home. I dont have anyone there just for me.
