Hi
i am certain that this is not just me, but being newly diagnosed and still learning what makes me tick (& tic), it’d be really helpful to be able to relate to others, but also just to get this out of my system somehow!
i’ve noticed over the years, with hindsight, during the years in particular where i believe i was in burnout,for example, that after leaving family functions (which i should have enjoyed, and did), feeling very overwhelmed and tearful. I was unknowingly masking over the course of these many incidents, but since my marriage has ended and living alone, the mask has completely slipped, plus in the last few months have received my diagnosis of ASD and ADHD.
So, now i’m living alone, and experiencing various sometimes alarming unmasked responses to sometimes a text exchange, a phone call or in person communication of some sort. I verbally chastise myself, replay endlessly what i should have said or how whatever i did say could be interpreted, plus have various physical tics etc
I’m happy recharging alone, but i really do worry that this tendency will delay even further finding a new network that i can feel safe with.
I’m hoping that someone else can relate…
