I have so many things I want to do. So many ideas and so many dreams. And naturally I can’t do it all. And I keep trying to convince myself that I can do it all. And then I burnout because I can’t. And I struggle with boundaries because I’m trying to juggle everything. I want to help many people, but I want to progress with my music career, but I have so many things I want to do, and I don’t feel like I’ve made much progress because I’m doing too much.
it makes me feel like a failure, and I want to prove that I’m not a failure. I keep convincing myself I can get up super early in the morning so I set my alarm for 5am every morning and always snooze it. And do the same thing the next day. I try to do this so I can be as productive as possible, or so I tell myself.
i lack routine, and so everything feels everywhere. I am a freelancer, so it feels hard to balance things properly, and keep in a consistent thread. I’m afraid that I’ll be stuck like this, and I’ll never grow properly.