So I have a new job at a closed door pharmacy that I’ve been at for about 3 weeks and it’s not perfect but it’s miles above the disaster of my last job (that’s a story for another day). But I’ve already had incidents with one of the managers that make me worry that I’m going to be labeled as being dramatic or problematic.
The first one happened last week. I do not have my own printer to print labels that are required to fill prescriptions with. When we got done typing (the data entry phase) I asked the girl I’m being forced to share a printer with to let me use it and she outright said no. Then the manager told me to just make syringe kits (for injecting the glp-1 meds we dispense). I was frustrated and said under my breath “I was hoping to fill today but okay.” The manger had the music turned off and said in front of everybody “what did you say?! Why did you give me such an attitude?!” Fighting off the panic attack something like that is inevitably going to cause I tried to explain that I was hoping to get more experience filling. I had a hard time expressing this but my reasoning is everyone gets to type but I’m the only one who doesn’t get to fill. I ended up just defaulting to “okay” to everything she said then cried in the bathroom for like 20 minutes.
After that incident I decided I’m going to just keep my head down and not talk to anyone so I had my earbuds in both ears. Also to down out the god awful music they play incredibly loudly. She needed my attention to tell me I made a very small mistake and I was told I can only have one earbud in. I explained that I cannot focus with the loud music she said we can’t be working in silence. I texted the boss and eventually we came to the conclusion of them turning the music down, which they barely did, and it’s still incredibly distracting, but clearly I’m going to just have to deal with it.
Also a smaller thing did happen earlier with the same manager. It was my FIRST WEEK on the job and I made some mistakes because I’m a human being (and was trained by someone who had only been there a week). She put a message in the group chat saying mistakes are unacceptable because it takes the team more time to fix them. Like okay that’s obviously incredibly unrealistic so I just ignored it.
So now I’m absolutely terrified to say anything to anyone other than basic greetings like “good morning” and yes to whatever is asked of me. I’m worried I’m already being labeled as a complainer and problematic. I am worried I will be fired if anything else happens because they’ll perceive me as causing drama. In my opinion the manager is just incredibly rude but she’s very close to the boss so there’s nothing I can do about that. I think I need to just be happy I have a job and suck it up but that’s very hard for me because I can’t ever seem to just keep my mouth shut when I’m unhappy with something. It feels like that’s all I can do though is just say nothing.
