Late diagnosis + realisation + identity

Hey! 

Always being on the move isn't good for anyone, but I would try and avoid putting myself down or seeing myself as different to people that ~have it perfect.~ Not to be too dark but anyone can get hit by a lorry, break a nail, lose pets etc. 

An autism diagnosis/suspicion is your best shot to really set some time aside and ask yourself simple questions, like do you enjoy eating meals, looking at colourful sunsets, listening to music, whatever. I mean you sort of have to be attuned to how your body processes sounds, smells, light, colours, temperatures, whether it responds to pain and hunger etc, so that you can optimise your lifestyle. 

I'd say whatever you have available, use it to your advantage. If you're sensitive to lights, get the tea candles out. If you have a good hearing, pay attention to noises you like and don't like, choose songs to listen to more carefully, and don't turn up the volume to the maximum. 

I've been in this game for two weeks, have spent a total of zero pounds, and have discovered that setting aside even ten minutes or half an hour each day to pretend to be a crystal basking in tea candle lights and being immersed in ambient music does the job. 

All I'm saying is work around it, and if you do self-destructive stuff, stop. Cause the worst about autism is, you're young now, you think you're invincible, and you will regret thinking that later. So just be mindful of your teeth, don't go out in the winter without a coat on, don't walk around when it's raining without an umbrella, that kind of thing. Just because you don't feel it it doesn't mean it won't harm you. 

For instance I don't feel emotions of any kind but my hands will start dancing when I'm about to do something remarkably self-destructive. Idk if this is other people also but my body contains the signs my brain ought to, so like, stomach goes up in knots, all of a sudden all motor functioning goes out of the window, it's like physical signs saying 'the system strongly disapproves, path mustn't be taken'. 

Re: diagnosis - I'm autistic as *** and they missed me at 16. What I'd suggest if you do do it, mind that some people have to try several times before they get the correct evaluation. The people that do the diagnosis are also human, don't make them tell you who you are and aren't. But a diagnosis sets you up for support, so there's that. I'd probably look up adult social care in your area and speak with them. Some councils run social work surgeries, maybe they can work it out for you. And talk to your GP. 

Hey! 

Always being on the move isn't good for anyone, but I would try and avoid putting myself down or seeing myself as different to people that ~have it perfect.~ Not to be too dark but anyone can get hit by a lorry, break a nail, lose pets etc. 

An autism diagnosis/suspicion is your best shot to really set some time aside and ask yourself simple questions, like do you enjoy eating meals, looking at colourful sunsets, listening to music, whatever. I mean you sort of have to be attuned to how your body processes sounds, smells, light, colours, temperatures, whether it responds to pain and hunger etc, so that you can optimise your lifestyle. 

I'd say whatever you have available, use it to your advantage. If you're sensitive to lights, get the tea candles out. If you have a good hearing, pay attention to noises you like and don't like, choose songs to listen to more carefully, and don't turn up the volume to the maximum. 

I've been in this game for two weeks, have spent a total of zero pounds, and have discovered that setting aside even ten minutes or half an hour each day to pretend to be a crystal basking in tea candle lights and being immersed in ambient music does the job. 

All I'm saying is work around it, and if you do self-destructive stuff, stop. Cause the worst about autism is, you're young now, you think you're invincible, and you will regret thinking that later. So just be mindful of your teeth, don't go out in the winter without a coat on, don't walk around when it's raining without an umbrella, that kind of thing. Just because you don't feel it it doesn't mean it won't harm you. 

For instance I don't feel emotions of any kind but my hands will start dancing when I'm about to do something remarkably self-destructive. Idk if this is other people also but my body contains the signs my brain ought to, so like, stomach goes up in knots, all of a sudden all motor functioning goes out of the window, it's like physical signs saying 'the system strongly disapproves, path mustn't be taken'. 

Re: diagnosis - I'm autistic as *** and they missed me at 16. What I'd suggest if you do do it, mind that some people have to try several times before they get the correct evaluation. The people that do the diagnosis are also human, don't make them tell you who you are and aren't. But a diagnosis sets you up for support, so there's that. I'd probably look up adult social care in your area and speak with them. Some councils run social work surgeries, maybe they can work it out for you. And talk to your GP.