So I was walking back from the shop feeling very tired and like my brain was shutting down and I let the autism in my out, started making all these faces, noises and hand movements. I got as massive sense of relief and energy, felt much more at ease, confidence, able to walk better, look at people. It was amazing. I felt normal and included.
I have been doing a lot of work with my therapist and within myself to accept my autism. So I feel this is a huge step forward for me. To be honest I don't care anymore now, now I know how it feels I am not repressing or masking it now. It makes me feel like *** and I can't functions, I need to do it and let people I am interacting with know what's going on.
I am done not accepting myself and denying who I am. Thanks.
