Hey I am very very sorry. I have been a horrible person to everyone and I just realised it because I had a near death experience. I faced death last nite and I am only still here because my friend literally saved my life. I took something hallucinogenic by accident and it made me think my tongue was melting in to my mouth and I had limited time before my breathing stopped. I wept and wept begging God to give me time to make things right. I begged please not like this!! I don't want to die at 25!!! When I woke up the next day I realised how lucky I am that I am still here. And on that moment I decided to devote the rest of my life to kindness and compassion. My mental health problems are gone. Or not important. Breathing and eating and drinking are important that's all! Nothing else matters! I see this now. I wasn't grateful to my mother for giving me the gift of creation. I am soooo grateful to still be here I WAS really close to dying. All I care about is life. Nothing else matters. I will never argue or fight or have it out against anyone again. Coming on here and complaining how pathetic! I am sooo powerful just by existing. I took life for granted that was my biggest mistake. It's only when you actually see how easy it can all be taken away. I just have so much desire to help others and devote everything into love and compassion. I was chosen for this world. I thought I could float and I thought if I jumped from the window I'd be fine. If my friend didn't talk me down I WOULDNT be here! Do you realise how grateful I am just to exist. I come in peace. Today I did something I never would do. I have NO money and I'm in debt yet I bought a burger king and I saw a cold homeless man and I decided he needs it more than me so I gave it to him instead??? Was I the guy on here going on and on about rubbish ? It doesn't seem like me I was not grateful to be alive before.
I thanks all of you brilliant autistic people for being alive. Remember be thankful and everything will be fine!