If someone said that to you. How would you know what they meant?
I have PMDD and undiagnosed autism. I have problems with ideas of reference and I’m in burnout but you wouldn’t know it from outside. I also have severe paranoid personality disorder but my information has been shared to make people hate me. I have had cognitive dissonance for 22 years and although I love people I also know they know my information which means I don’t want to see anyone and everyone has been spreading my information. So it’s not good. I have been in derealisation depersonalisation and dissociating. My life has been ripped apart and it’s not something I can recover from. Today I have my PMDD luteal phase and was upset instantly earlier and now I’m down and plummeting. I’m tired and aware that I don’t have the capacity to cope with people and how they gossip.
no one has said anything wrong to me today it’s internal and I’m exhausted.
People who are fit and healthy or able are bad people. Because I was on meds I shouldn’t have been on and got no recovery from them and my heads been severely messed with and no one realises that it’s the NHS fault for medicating me and my ex partners fault for trying to change me and the governments fault for stalking me.
I wish people didn’t exist but at the same time I care for thier health and well being and want them to be well and healthy but I just don’t fit into society at all.
