Articulate?

Having high verbal skills doesn't mean you are or are not autistic.

Some autistic people are actors, it helps with masking too.

Not mixing with people can be due to more than one thing. But is a common autism issue.

Have you tried the AQ-50 test?

I scored 48 out of 50 on AQ50 all other autism tests I’ve scored 10/10 or just about full.

I scored 48 out of 50 on AQ50 all other autism tests I’ve scored 10/10 or just about full.

If you were assessed a long time ago, it is possible views have changed since.

But other conditions can look similar to autism, like anxiety disorders, personality disorders., trauma. This is why just a questionnaire is not enough for a formal diagnosis. There are sensory, communication and cognitive differences, which are assessed. It is not just what you say, but how you say it and what you leave out.

You say you "should be diagnosed". Is it for personal validation? It is not a magic wand that solves stuff. It doesn't fix your problems and there is limited help as it is not 'curable'. You just have to figure out how best to cope.

Most therapy is aimed at allowing you to regulate your nervous system so that you can make well reasoned decisions and function normally. It doesn't remove the past, it just allows you to tolerate emotions without being overwhelmed.

The key giveaway for autism is burnout. Reduced functioning, emotional fragility, lasting months. The objective here is to reduce load to give the nervous system a chance to rebalance 

You mention that you had an assessment and describe yourself as “autistic neurodivergent,” even though you were not formally diagnosed.

What does “appearing autistic” mean in the context of an assessment?

You mentioned that you “don’t have money to waste”. Is a diagnosis something you feel you really want or need?

Why do you believe you should be diagnosed?

What do you mean by being “erased”?

Is an assessment necessary?
Do you need or want other people's validation?
Realistically, what would you achieve from a diagnosis?
Would you receive the treatment you believe you need or want?
Is it a fact that humans who are "extremely articulate" are seen as "extremely able"? Able in what regard?

Is it possible that there are neurotypical people who are extremely articulate and cannot mix with others?
Is it possible that there are neurotypical people who are extremely sensitive?
Is it acceptable to be a person who is full of attitude, perceived as able, and neurotypical?

Thanks 

• I had an assessment but I am autistic neurodivergent but I wasn’t diagnosed. So if I went now and paid for a test which I can’t afford they may say I don’t have autism and that’s a lot of money I don’t have for them to say no.
• I know I don’t appear autistic in assessment but I should be diagnosed. 
  I don’t have the money to waste or support to get the diagnosis and there’s not somewhere reliable that’s nhs approved privately that I’m sure of. I also don’t have anyone to go with and also because I haven’t been me since high school so I have been erased since and now I need help back to me with out pressure and I need some decent happy people who aren’t pressure or bad or have a offness coldness as I find those people scary.

What is reason for the question?

Do you want an assesment?

If you had one, would it make things different for you? You already seem quite sure. 

Do you need someone to believe you or offer support?