please can i introduce myself

Morning all 

My name is dyanne, I am 60-years old, and only recently formally diagnosed with autism.  I was fully aware that a diagnosis wasn't going to change anything, but I was deternined that I would find something positive about going throught the process.  One of the clinicians i saw told me to embrace being austic and to openly share my diagnosis.  she said i have spent 60 years trying to fit in with the world, so maybe if people were aware of my diagnosis, they might consider meeting me half way.  One of the hardest thing about going through the diagnosis process was acknowledging how desparately sad and lonely i have been throughout mylife.

So I'm accepting the new me, being my authentic self and learning to give myself some grace.  It's a start right.....

Its definitely helped with my relationshops with my husband....he's previously thought that i was lazy and wouldn't make an effort to socialise with people.  He now knows that it literally takes everything I've got to do that.  so I'm looking out for all the positives, no matter how small they are.

dyanne x

Parents
  • Hello and welcome to the 'Latelings' club.

    That is good you are going to embrace your autism. That word 'lazy' was directed at me by my wife for many many years. I just couldn't articulate that it wasn't lazy for lazy sake but I that I had no energy. I have internalised this so much that I beat myself up if I do not do things and this causes me angst. I am glad your husband can relate to your situation.

    I guess what I am saying that at your age you will have internalised a lot of ableism and it can be really hard to shrug off.

    Be careful who you tell at first as not everyone will be so understanding.

  • My husband gave me the same advice, but to be honest i have nothing to lose.  There's still a lot of stigma and ignorance around autism, but its not my problem.   Being me has to be good enough.  When i got my diagnosis there was a massive temptation to review my past and think "what if i got a diagnosis earlier, would my life have been easier"  but raking over the past isn't going to serve me.  i'm putting a lid on that box and starting a new chapter.  

    Im so happy ive found this site.

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  • My husband gave me the same advice, but to be honest i have nothing to lose.  There's still a lot of stigma and ignorance around autism, but its not my problem.   Being me has to be good enough.  When i got my diagnosis there was a massive temptation to review my past and think "what if i got a diagnosis earlier, would my life have been easier"  but raking over the past isn't going to serve me.  i'm putting a lid on that box and starting a new chapter.  

    Im so happy ive found this site.

Children
  • Hi  congratulations and welcome!!

    I love your attitude and envy that skill you have -  putting a lid on your past. 

    I like the idea of starting over too. I'm 55 and recently diagnosed.

    I would say even though I have read books and listened to podcasts this place is where I have learnt the most about autism.

    Look forward to chatting.

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  • It is normal to review your past life through the autism lens. Not to beat yourself up over it, although you may grieve a bit, but to get a better understanding. You will no doubt have been masking all your life trying to fit in and it will be difficult to fully unmask. I am 2 years post diagnosis and still struggle to unmask in public. I wanted to but now I am wary as disclosing to my employer did not go well and now is subject to employment tribunal proceedings.

    I am so glad that your husband is being supportive. I now have a wonderfully supportive partner but still feel the pressure from society to conform.