Negative MH post

Hi everyone this is a negative post, so avoid if your not to good or you want to stay up.

Everyday is a bad day. The mask of pretending to be okay and fine is too difficult.

i don’t have depression i have reality. Reality that no matter what you do and no matter how much you try and no matter how may people who speak to they can’t fix it. 

instead they did absolutely everything to make sure that there was no way in the world anything could fix it. The NHS harm and they made sure of it. They made sure that the harm they where doing was done to the severity that it couldn’t be fixed.

They worked together to do it. The opposite of what the are meant todo.

Abuse disguised as care by the NHS

Abuse disguised as care by ex partner.

The doctor and the nurses and the psychologists and the psychiatrists and all the professionals did harm. That what the set out todo on behalf of my ex partner as if they didn’t he would say they are colluding with mental illness.

It was something that was created by my ex and once the NHS Add meds into the mix that it. 

be extremely careful not to be coerced into medications and MH treatments and remember you have the right to informed consent.

There’s no solution. It’s gone now!

  • I relate to some of what you said. NHS mh services cause damage.

    Sorry you're having a rubbish time.

  • I don't have anything helpful to say except that we are here and we see you as you. Sounds like your in a bad place at the moment, but do keep writing and posting! I find it helps me anyway.

  • Hello,

    Do you feel like this all the time, or does it come in waves, or at certain times of day?

    You could write it down and you might see a pattern. You might find you feel more negative if you didn't sleep well, or in the afternoon.

    I realised this in me. It was while I was processing lots of stuff. If I drank some alcohol, the next afternoon I became more negative. The more tired I am the more negative I become.

    This might help you. Then you know it will pass.

    I terms of working through trauma you will need some help. It won't go away, but you can make it better, although I takes time.

    You might be able to set time limits. Let the negative stuff come, but don't let it last too long, and have something like a nice warm drink after and do something to ground yourself like washing you hands in cold water.

    It also helps to write stuff down. Either on paper or to an AI, if you can't talk to someone. Get it out. It helps to form your thoughts clearly and stop the mush going on in your head.

    You can also then see if things change, over time. And when you have food moments you can see if they are changing (although the AI will tell you that and notice patterns, it did for me).

    There's no easy answer. I don't know your full situation. Be kind to yourself. Don't think you are failing. But do try to separate things out and make sure things are real and are true. There might be other interpretations. A therapist could help.

  • I'm sorry you find youself in a situation where you feel everything is against you - I cannot imagine how this must feel but I do want to let you know we are here for you for what it is worth.

    Do you have anyone you trust to advocate for you any more?