I am so happy I now know I am autistic because I can explain what it happening to myself and my brain doesn't get upset with itself.
I was in a session with my personal trainer yesterday, doing now exercises in a certain area of the gym, then two guy's were waiting to use the cables so we moved, but my things were behind where the two guy's were, I froze as this was a unexpected thing on top of the new exercises, so I stood there staring at my things behind the two guy's for about 10 seconds, until my personal trainer stepped in between them and got them for me, as he did it I walked out the doors into the hallway saying to myself thank god, I will just let him do that'. Haha. Its embarrassing and humiliating in my head, but now I know I am autistic I can just deal with it and move on. I am learning as a autistic person with cerebral palsy that I can't do things the way other people do them, I need extra and specific support, but I can do it all the same. It was explained to me on Tuesday by my spiritual mentor that my brain is buffering because there is too much its trying to process. So this makes me feel better and explains the process to me.
I am in my recharging phase for the past 2 days and today I had to go to the shop to get food, but because my brain is just in the process of decompressing to enable it to recharge I was getting overwhelmed by people being near me, I went to get some cheese, then I felt a women standing about a meter away and I just walked off, I couldn't deal with it, I went to the counter didn't look at anyone and paid, left. I went to two other shops looking for different things, and it was still happening. I managed it, but I didn't enjoy it. I know I can get food delivered, but I like going to the shop because it keeps me active and walking, otherwise I stay in and get fat basically while I am in my recharging phase which lasts 3-4 days.
Does anyone else experience these things, how does it make you feel and how do you manage it? Thank you.
