Recently after leaving my job and being out of employment for a few months now I’ve started to feel a lot more unprepared for society. While in the original role I suppose I built my free time up around it so didn’t need to question too much: it was routine. For a long time life was quite easy going in the field of demands and expectations but now I’m required to attend the job centre and other related places and try to pretend I am all set and prepared for meeting new people, going to possible new work places along with faking enthusiasm for the roles I’m interviewed for. It’s like having to detach yourself from the comfort of your own being and become someone else just to “fit in”. I have a sense of disliking being told what to do also, not liking being controlled in some way. I also don’t like having to sell myself to the interviewer, it’s like saying “hire me hire me, I am better than the next person!” Why must I practically grovel. Perhaps my points of view come across as immature or perhaps spoilt in some way.
