Repeated burnouts.

Hello

i sought and received diagnosis last year aged 42 thanks to repeated burnouts at work. I work in an industry (health) where I can move around in roles and departments so this largely went under the radar. I achieved a lot academically in the past decade in addition to working full time; externally I looked as though I was thriving. Well liked, well respected, promoted, I have a very gifted IQ and am an expert in masking.

After diagnosis I moved into a different role earlier this year in an attempt to pivot away from clinical work and into a more strategic position to try to avoid repeated patterns. it’s been a manic ten months with no training, changes to managements and teams, and now we’ve entered consultation for restructure. I’ve reached burnout again and am off work with significant executive dysfunction.

Does anyone have similar experience and has managed to break the cycle of high masking and burnout? My reasonable adjustments haven’t been met but I’m finding it really difficult to advocate for myself to a point where I get the support I need. This is the consequence and I feel so sad that this has happened again despite my efforts. I’ve read all the advice and guidance but struggling to put theory into practice.

Any suggestions or comments welcome.

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  • For me it’s very difficult to advocate for myself as I don’t really understand what it is that I feel or that I need or that I feel I need so it’s a vicious cycle. You can try copy others and attempt to blend in but you cannot ignore that sensation that you are different, somehow in the room but not really at all. In a sense I tend to alienate myself due to feelings of not belonging although not being able to put my finger on why that is, I could just try to accept it’s autism. Accepting my differences and inabilities is a huge hurdle for me and seems to grow more difficult with age as I compare myself to others, being late diagnosed is like suddenly boarding a boat heading in another direction from all the other boats and not really knowing where you are heading to. For you personally it sounds like you’ve accomplished an awful lot, that’s taken immense strength and should be considered as a great deal. 

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  • For me it’s very difficult to advocate for myself as I don’t really understand what it is that I feel or that I need or that I feel I need so it’s a vicious cycle. You can try copy others and attempt to blend in but you cannot ignore that sensation that you are different, somehow in the room but not really at all. In a sense I tend to alienate myself due to feelings of not belonging although not being able to put my finger on why that is, I could just try to accept it’s autism. Accepting my differences and inabilities is a huge hurdle for me and seems to grow more difficult with age as I compare myself to others, being late diagnosed is like suddenly boarding a boat heading in another direction from all the other boats and not really knowing where you are heading to. For you personally it sounds like you’ve accomplished an awful lot, that’s taken immense strength and should be considered as a great deal. 

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