What jobs best suit you as an autistic adult?

The short answer is none. Everything I ever started was ended 90% of the time by me. The initial motivation always abandoned me cruelly without the chance to reconsider. I’ve worked in so many different sectors that it all feels like a bad dream.

Feeling this at the moment, haven’t a clue what I want to do but realising it may have to involve as little human contact as possible. I haven’t got anything left in my tank to mask and pretend any longer 

Feeling this at the moment, haven’t a clue what I want to do but realising it may have to involve as little human contact as possible. I haven’t got anything left in my tank to mask and pretend any longer 

The anxiety is definitely a huge hurdle for me and may as well be a mountain at times. I tend to view situations from a viewpoint of the outsider too which adds a perspective of observing others perhaps to try pin point what keeps them afloat in a harsh environment like a workplace, what motivates them and what is the positive impact on them from being there and performing these duties. There’s the banter and social interactions too where colleagues or staff may discuss their private lives perhaps comparing their pet’s behaviour or throwing in a joke about another. I could try to copy and imitate these behaviours but if it’s something I am consciously doing it’s not me and would be highly likely to trigger more anxiety, poor sleep quality and low mood. To try explain these issues to NTs is like trying to teach them a new language from scratch, it just simply doesn’t make sense to them.

Thinking about how others manage professionally when I’ve always struggled massively with it since my very first job at every imaginable level is completely normal, but at the same time, not so helpful. It’s psychologically damaging because it somehow implies I’m doing it on purpose when it’s actually beyond my control. The repetitive pattern of a motivation relapse becomes a more serious issue as time passes, affecting virtually every aspect of life besides the economy. This leads to uncontrollable anxiety, and anxiety never comes alone. It’s definitely not an easy one.

Nice to meet you by the way Autismman . What a beautiful avatar and name (Autismman) you have by the way. Reminds me of some of the music I listen to. 

Thanks for your reply. Trying to figure out how someone comfortably goes about their work day around others is impossible for me, I wish I could build a bubble around my home and never have to leave to be honest. I can occupy myself with my interests but there’s this nagging economy and money thing that is trying to enter that bubble constantly. 

It’s so “nice” (I hope you know what I mean cause obviously there is actually nothing nice about this) to know I’m not alone in this. I read your first post in this thread the other day and that one also made me feel related.