I have found the last 10 years quite tough. If I had to point just to one thing, I most commonly felt -and feel- alienated (or estranged).
There is like an oscillation: trying, failing, trying, failing...
I am exhausted, I feel an alien that doesn't quite know why it can't be fully like the others. I fear I will never be able to work, and this in turn makes me feel lazy or unworthy of love.
I have tried to cope, but this has left me quite disabled -or so I feel. And even with reasonable work experience and degrees, I feel just drained.
I was told this was autisc burnout, but sometimes I doubt it will go away. It feels like stuck with me.
I wonder how this maps to your case, or anything that comes to your mind.
If you feel so too, I share my love to you.
