People have told me that I tend to overthink things and that I panic and worry about stuff that I shouldn't be. I can't help it, it's just one of the parts of my anxiety and I've slowly come to except that I'm a worrier... but recently a small argument I had with my mum in regards to this part of myself has really stuck in my mind.
My mum and I have recently just come back from a small holiday away and it was the day before we away and we were busy making sure our bags were packed. We were only going away for two days so we wanted to make sure we packed Light. Now one of little things or quirks about me is that it doesn't matter where I am going or how long I'm going to be away home for, I was like to pack things which I believe I would need whether it be meds, hand sanitizer or extra money whatever it may be because I can't help but imagine all the possible emergency situations that might happen when I'm out and about and the disaster that may occur if I don't have any of these things whether necessary or not. For Me, it's better safe than sorry and I feel like I can't function without taking what feels like for me the necessary precautions. So, my mum and I got into the this tiny argument because told me to take a smaller bag even though I explained to her I needed a particular bag because I need my whole purse with my cash. We then went back forth with her telling me that I apparently only needed a small amount of cash with me while I'm trying to explain to her why I need all my money with me. It then she kinda lost her temper a said something along the lines of
"Enough of your nonsense, don't ruin this trip before it starts".
That really hurt my feelings when she said that. Don't get me wrong she sort of apologised for it and we did end up having a nice holiday together... but it's kinda just stuck in the back of my mind. I now have this horrible awful feeling that I somehow annoy people with this quirk of my mine. But I can't help it, I can't just shift it, analysing possible situations that may or may not happen and planning on how to prevent them is the only way I feel I can function. It's like my parents just don't get that.
Do I worry too much?
It upsets me to think I come across as annoying to people because of it.
