Feeling so embarrassed

This is more of a rant post and could possibly be triggering

Ugh, what an awful day today! Just wanted to have a chat with my mum over the phone due to an awful night sleep and summer distressing me, well I ended up having a real meltdown and then mum hung up on me leading me to really get upset and cry really loud like I was having a temper tantrum and forgot all the windows were open. Next thing people are knocking on the door seeing what’s happening and turns out to be two guys from like a crisis ambulance or something. So I had to explain everything to them and then spoke with a very nice and caring lady on the crisis line. Everyone was very supportive there. But I feel so embarrassed now because everyone in the block of flats has heard me and now I’m the gossip of the block. I’m staying at my nans as she’s not here but I just want to be back at mine now, not at mine due to work but tempting to put my mattress in the living room. Mum blocked me and probably even got everyone in the family to block me not that I’m close with them but it’s like they want shut of me. I just feel such in embarrassed idiot now. 

Parents
  • We can have a tendency to have an aversion to being perceived by people - not that people are actually often as interested in us as we imagine - it can be how we feel and work to dispell that sensation.

    I have some super-cringe-worthy embarrassing moments in my history ...but I doubt many, if any, other people give them a second thought these days.  I have to remind myself it is as though I am missing the archive function enjoyed by other people.

    Autismman's advice is seconded by me.

    Why not choose a gentle TV programme you enjoy for an hour and then try and get an early night.  Rest is helpful, sleep is even better.

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  • We can have a tendency to have an aversion to being perceived by people - not that people are actually often as interested in us as we imagine - it can be how we feel and work to dispell that sensation.

    I have some super-cringe-worthy embarrassing moments in my history ...but I doubt many, if any, other people give them a second thought these days.  I have to remind myself it is as though I am missing the archive function enjoyed by other people.

    Autismman's advice is seconded by me.

    Why not choose a gentle TV programme you enjoy for an hour and then try and get an early night.  Rest is helpful, sleep is even better.

Children
  • Thank you for replying! Yeah tho k I’ll actually watch some SpongeBob to cheer myself up as he’s always been a good distraction. It just upsets me because I was so close to my mum and I am worried I’ll lose her for good! I know embarrassing moments happen and I’ve been there so many times and well I have got over them I guess, I have been so embarrassed in many situations but I think I feel angry with myself for letting it happen.