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I can’t enjoy the activities that usually help me relax

genny.a

I’m 20 years old and was diagnosed with level 1 Autism a few months ago.

At uni I spent a lot of time on my own watching YouTube and reading as this is my comfort activity but it was balanced with seeing my friends for at least a couple hours, 4 days a week in lectures/seminars etc, and then we’d see each other more throughout the week for film nights, walks around town, pub nights etc. I would go to my lectures, meet with my friends, sort food shopping etc, then come home and go straight to chilling in bed with YouTube or a book from 4/5pm until I’d go to sleep at 11pm. On the 3 days a week I didn’t have lectures/seminars etc, 2 of them I would spend relaxing in bed all day usually and the 3rd I’d go out into town, walk around, go to a cafe or something like that, sometimes with others and sometimes alone.

Since the uni year finished and I moved back home at the end of June for the summer I spent around 6 weeks spending literally all day in bed watching YouTube and reading as I live in a small village with no friends around. I was starting to feel really restless and like I needed to do more than just this but I have nothing to do here. I think this then led to the issues I’m facing now.

About 2 weeks ago I started feeling extremely anxious and I have felt this way since. It was triggered by multiple different things in my life at the moment, such as feeling isolated after being home from uni all summer and also anxiety about starting my first 9-5 office job while living in a new city on my own (it’s a 50 weeks placement as part of my university course).

I have experienced periods of extreme anxiety multiple times before, but usually it is linked to events or time periods, eg exams, driving test, something I’m new to etc. This means that I get anxious leading up to the event and during the event but after it’s over I usually get back to myself a week or two later. Even after a month long period of really bad anxiety I was enjoying things again after a week or two. This time it’s made it hard to deal with as there doesn’t feel like there’s an ‘end’ to this anxiety, especially as my job doesn’t start until September and then when I start the job I fear that the anxiety will just get even worse and last for months.

When I get anxious like this I can’t enjoy watching YouTube or reading books. This is so hard for me as these two things are my only comforts. They play a big part in my routine and are how I would chose to spend my free time but when I get anxious I have to replace them with being constantly active and doing something distracting. This is okay for a short period of time when I know I can go back to what I like soon, but with this anxiety I can’t see an end in sight or if I can it’s months away, so I feel so mentally exhausted because it feels like something so important from me has been taken away.

It’s especially hard in the mornings, as I would usually wake up around 7 and spend my morning watching YouTube or reading, making me happy and relaxed for the day ahead. Now I wake up at 5 with anxiety that I can’t get rid of and can’t watch YouTube or read, so I either have to get up and do things around the house or fall into doomscrolling. This makes every day miserable and I’m so scared that I won’t be able to get back to what I used to do, I want to be able to feel how I used to feel.

Will I be able to feel normal again and fully relax? What can I do to fix this?

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  • Hello genny, when I find myself in this sort of situation where I have a lot of time on my hands, anxiety is becoming intrusive and relaxation is hard then I will focus on the following.

    1 - Exercise. This burns off a lot of the energy that is stopping me from sleeping well and actually gives a very positive result through endorphines as well as the health benefits.

    Why not walk or cycle to neighbouring towns, get to know your area closely and feel a part of the general community without having to talk to anyone if you don't feel like it.

    This doesn't use up that much time and allows for the other foucs:

    2 - Improve yourself in preparation for the thing you are anxious about, or just to better yourself.

    For the driving test for example, get all the hands on experience you can in a car, either as driver or passanger and ask lots of questions - find out how to fill it with petrol, change a tyre, fill the windscreen washer fluid, check brake / clutch / aircon fluid levels etc.

    For uni, re-read your notes from last year, refresh all you learned so the new start is much easier. Prepare to get in early to pick up timetables and book lists so you can get eveything and be prepared.

    3 - work on some skills for your autistic traits. A therapist would be ideal but if not consider learning about mindfulness and meditation and start practicing them. You will probably need help somewhere along the way as they can be tricky but don't be afraid to ask for help.

    I'm sure the uni will have some people there who can give some sessions to help too.

    Basically I try to turn the 1 resource I have to my advantage - time. No more feeling bad about procrastinating 6 days a week and it quickly starts to give a feeling of progress if you track what you have done day by day. Also the feeling of taking control of the situation rather than letting it control you builds self confidence which quite empowering.

    That's what I would do in your shoes. The hard part is getting started but I always find it much more effective to just take that first step then plan out the whole thing stops me from getting stuck on the launch phase.

    Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

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  • Hello genny, when I find myself in this sort of situation where I have a lot of time on my hands, anxiety is becoming intrusive and relaxation is hard then I will focus on the following.

    1 - Exercise. This burns off a lot of the energy that is stopping me from sleeping well and actually gives a very positive result through endorphines as well as the health benefits.

    Why not walk or cycle to neighbouring towns, get to know your area closely and feel a part of the general community without having to talk to anyone if you don't feel like it.

    This doesn't use up that much time and allows for the other foucs:

    2 - Improve yourself in preparation for the thing you are anxious about, or just to better yourself.

    For the driving test for example, get all the hands on experience you can in a car, either as driver or passanger and ask lots of questions - find out how to fill it with petrol, change a tyre, fill the windscreen washer fluid, check brake / clutch / aircon fluid levels etc.

    For uni, re-read your notes from last year, refresh all you learned so the new start is much easier. Prepare to get in early to pick up timetables and book lists so you can get eveything and be prepared.

    3 - work on some skills for your autistic traits. A therapist would be ideal but if not consider learning about mindfulness and meditation and start practicing them. You will probably need help somewhere along the way as they can be tricky but don't be afraid to ask for help.

    I'm sure the uni will have some people there who can give some sessions to help too.

    Basically I try to turn the 1 resource I have to my advantage - time. No more feeling bad about procrastinating 6 days a week and it quickly starts to give a feeling of progress if you track what you have done day by day. Also the feeling of taking control of the situation rather than letting it control you builds self confidence which quite empowering.

    That's what I would do in your shoes. The hard part is getting started but I always find it much more effective to just take that first step then plan out the whole thing stops me from getting stuck on the launch phase.

    Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

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