I’m autisc and adhd combined. And I’m not living and doing well at all. I’m surviving.
I’m 39 in August got diagnosed a few years ago. and I’ve had a troubled school life then adult life after falling pregnant from a one night stand at 17. Babies at 18 - she’s 21 this November. I had three other children. I’ve had plenty of jobs throughout my life but now I’m just on pip as my physically health isn’t good due to many conditions. And my mental health is shocking. I can’t go out. I can’t socialise well I am filled with dread and fear every day. I’m not medicated they don’t even know what to give me coz when they do they don’t work. I keep begging for sone sort of stimulant but they never give me anything - since being diagnosed I thought things would get easier but there not. I don’t have any support as I can’t turn to anyone for support. It’s hard when you’re like me ! I’m not doing well and the boredom is killing me. I been thinking for ages I want to set my own business up - from my summer house. Printing and personalised items. I want to do a wide range of clothing and stantiory and gifts. I’m already writing a plan. And everything I need all the equipment and things like stock where to purchase ect BUT i feel like a need guidance on the way to keep me focussed and I also feel like I need to be shown what to do instead of following it from videos. It’s really stressing me out knowing it’s me and only me when I need help but I don’t know where to turn to. I really want someone to show me. But do they do courses on sublimation printing ? Or is there any courses where you can go and someone can actually tell you everything you need to know about starting a business in regards to insurance ect - or is it all just online as I’m concerned I’m gonna burn out and get upset and overwhelmed, like I am a bit now. I have no self confidence and have burning anxiety 24/7 - I really want to do this I have this mindset I need to do something with my life - a career a good job some income something for my kids to be proud of :( I’m based in Middleton Manchester m24 - if anyone even knows of anyone with a business like this that can talk with me ? I don’t want to put anything on my own socials to let people know what I’m doing and get too personal as I’m a private person I don’t like people knowing my struggles. I just want to succeed at something in life. I suppose I’d like To hear from others doing similar things that can help or advise would be appreciated- thanks for reading.
