Does anyone else find that their masking is massively over the top? If you asked everyone that knows me what they thought of me they’d all probably say that I’m fun, caring, happy go lucky, great to be around and someone they look forward to seeing. And I am, or should I say the mask is. I’m so tired, it’s almost like in my home and safe environment I can be quiet and thoughtful and alone without the act. As soon as I’m out at work or public the actress in me kicks in, the greasepaint goes on and I become this other person. It’s so tiring all the time to be the person everyone wants me to be, I’m relied upon as someone to lift the mood, even if they don’t see how fake it all is. I don’t want to stop masking in case people don’t like what they see but I equally want to because I’m so tired all the time.
