Struggles With Building A Support Network

Hello, 

I am mum of two little girls aged five and nineteen months and have tried and failed to build a positive and supportive support network. It is just me, the girls and my husband. I don't have any friends as I can't stand small talk (hate it with a passion lol) but it is essential for everyday relationships or so I am told. 

I just hate socialising because it makes me uncomfortable. The last time I had a functioning support network was when I was at school nearly twenty years ago. It's ironic, really because school wasn't a great place for me, either but most of the teachers cared about me enough to offer support and guidance. 

I feel like this is my life and that I don't have a future Disappointed