I for one absolutely hate being on benefits, I always blamed myself for not being able or willing to suck it up and just do whatever was available despite the inertia and subsequent meltdowns.
It's so maddening to have your life picked apart by apathetic minions of the establishment, faceless voices and words reminding us we are powerless.
After a gauling telephone interrogation by one of their flunkies, I was so pissed at myself my head was spinning and genuinely thought my heart was going to explode.