Being touched made me feel sick inside

Recently I had an ECG as part of diabetes test which required me to be touched by the nurse.  I immediately felt violated and judged as I'm not in the best of shape and several readings were required.  I held it in and feigned politeness until I could leave.  For context I'm male, asexual and touch averse from being assaulted as a teen and harassed in school and the nurse was female.  I'm disgusted by my own body and want to keep it covered.

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  • Same here. Clumsy - check. Feel ugly - a lot. Hairy - check. Being born in wrong body can be a complicated issue, so I am not able to advise about that.

    My partner is male and is also hairy. He has the luxury of having great self esteem, so doesn't care. I think that that is what I aim to be more like. To have better self-esteem, so care less.