Graphic designer doesn't have imagination

Noon.. said:

I just have to work to earn money.

There is honour and righteousness in that.  It is to be applauded, in my opinion (if you can find the ability and spoons to do work.)

Noon.. said:

I've tried many times, but I feel like I'm not great at being a

.......I'm not sure it matters how that sentence is finished......I believe that MANY of us who are able to work, feel the same way.  I'm also pretty sure that, in reality, it isn't true to a large extent!  I suppose it depends on how you define the word "great" in this context.

Personally, I think that, if someone is prepared to give you money for "doing your thing," then empirically, you are "great enough" to feel worthy and valued in your role.

As a "type" we are known to often be hyper critical of our own abilities and achievements.  "Self-loathing" is VERY common amongst many of us.  "Self-doubt" and "utter lack of self-belief" is EVEN MORE common amongst us.

I reckon that perhaps we need to be patient with ourselves.  "Greatness" can come in a blinding flashing from nowhere-in-particular.....so keep the faith brother, whilst you keep earning.  This is infinitely preferable to all the alternatives?

Just my opinions Noon - fwiw.

I don't like the idea that I'm belittling abilities, on the contrary... There's nothing to lose in this world if you encourage yourself... and believe in your abilities and keep fighting... But it's hard to accept yourself in a place that's not your place... as if you were a square trying to live in circles. 

I don't like the idea that I'm belittling abilities, on the contrary... There's nothing to lose in this world if you encourage yourself... and believe in your abilities and keep fighting... But it's hard to accept yourself in a place that's not your place... as if you were a square trying to live in circles. 

I'll tell you something else I learned from another member here, a while back.  He pointed out that autism, by some definitions (from antiquity) suggested a direct correlation between "our job" and "our being/self" - ie that in times-gone-by, autistic people were termed "people who ARE their job" in a certain respect.

I have no reason to doubt the authenticity of that information, nor do I doubt that I have "Chinese-whispered" the details a bit.......but I know I have the "spirit" of this point correct.

I found this very useful to know.  To a very large extent, it does sorta explain me.  I do what I do, and people give me money for that, sometimes.  Whether I get money or not for what I do, I do it anyway.  That's a tough gig brother, to some extent, and utterly beautiful in some respects too.

I a very "Numberish" way, I think I am asking you if you think you should be doing something else with your life?!  You are a gentleman of a certain age (although I have little precise idea what age-group you fall into, [nor your pronouns tbh!!]) but us males are prone to self-searching and wondering a lot about what we were "MEANT" to be.  That isn't a bad thing, in my opinion, but it can be a bit of a burden at time?!

If you think you would be happier joining the circus, or entering the ranks of "der management", rather than doing your current gig.......then give it a go?!  Why not!  Can you find the spoons and resources to try something else?  Is there something else SPECIFIC on your mind?

Please accept these comments and queries as all well meaning and well intentioned, from me.  I only attempt to be helpful and friendly with my words.  I know that I can be misinterpreted.

Yours

Number.