3 Good Things (again)

1. Replied to an email

2. Took a shower despite there being a scary big fly

3. Making progress on Infinity Nikki quests

1. Attended number one of six zoom sessions on - Empower Autism: Navigating Life with Confidence
2. Made Sourdough 
3. Roasted chestnuts.

1. On Mario kart world I managed to actually hear the whole Grumble Volcano song whilst doing the intermission race from Desert Hills to Koopa troopa beach
2. Managed to get out of bed without cancelling my alarm
3. Decorated my mini Christmas tree in the hall 

1. Started decorating for Christmas
2. Getting used to the sims 4
3. Relaxing in the bath

That sounds familiar. Worrying if we might have upset someone. I know that feeling well.

It doesn't matter, because we understand these things because we do them all ourselves.

What matters is what we do today.

You are making a difference, to me and I'm sure many others on here.

Thank you again for all you hard work.

Thank you. I'm pleased the masking info helped. It is why I put it up. It took a bit of time to edit (a couple of hours for main posts). When I first posted in May I was more dysregulated than I realised, I also took a break for a few weeks. I'm not sure I was always as kind as I could have been.

So pleased for youStuart333 

I think you've been posting more and it really comes across how much you want to help.

I had therapy today and I showed my therapist your 1-12 masking post. It helped explain a bit of what I'm going through. Thank you!!

Spoons, yeah we talked about those too.

I need more spoons!! ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ

1.Got the next stage of the National Cipher Challenge done in less than 1 hour today.

2.Got the filing and cutting done on the bits of aluminium for my Nixie Tube clock/frequency counter yesterday - hopefully get more done on it tomorrow.

3.Been enjoying the home made shortbread that I made last week (got a dozen of them out the freezer yesterday).

1. I'm feeling better than in a very long time. It is not perfect or stable, but getting there. There are noticeable improvements each week. My thinking is getting better. I can't tell if it shows on here.
2. I've understood my past, about as much as I can, and the burnout is going. It has taken a lot of effort.
3. I feel like I might have some extra capacity (spoons) to do stuff. Confronting your problems and being nice to yourself, and taking sleep seriously, actually works. It just takes time (months) and effort. 

1. Saw loads of fireworks which were really pretty 
2. Had tasty Nashville style chicken wings 
3. Hope I can say this if it needs removing I understand but it’s one month until my birthday 

I've started a poetry thread if you'd like to share some of your poems here?

1. Got some unwanted furniture taken away by a charity

2. Had a perfectly baked garlic baguette - golden and crispy on the outside, soft on the inside - for dinner with pasta Bolognese

3. Wrote a poem about bonfire night and started a poetry thread

1. Took my Artist friend to town, for his fortnightly medication injection, this afternoon.

2. Bought a new kettle, at the Lidl in town.

3. Bought more Raw Milk; off a Farmer, just outside town.

1. I survived a presentation 

2. see 1

3. See 2

1. Got in contact with a local Author; after listening to a Podcast Interview last night.

2. Got Raw Milk; at an Organic Farm outside Rasharkin.

3. Created an X account, last night, with view of publishing my poetry - from 2019 to now - there.

Had a brunch at the usual cafe. 

Donated a very good winter coat to the library. I'd bought a second hand one in a charity shop. 

Borrowed 2 books from a different library. 

1. Spuds, from my Air Fryer, beans, from my Saucepan and tinned tuna for dinner.

2. Brushing my teeth; and now wearing my mouth guard, for tonight.

3. Dishwasher going.

1. Having a relaxing night.

2. Spent last night doing chores, then listening to LPs.

3. Charging my phone.

Continuing with the above,  I am changing it with an update.

1. Yesterday I got my money back for the faulty air fryer.
2. This morning I received in the post £55 from the household support fund.
3. A letter confirming that I am getting £150 warm home discount this winter.

1. Spent more than an hour talking to my adhd florist. She is easy to talk to.
2. Have identified some more issues from my past. A trauma bond in particular. It will help me deal with it.
3. Have been ranting at the AI, it has pointed out I am turning my feelings into negative thoughts. It thinks instead of feeling I route feelings to thoughts. The thoughts are proxies for feelings. Which is why they pass and I oscillate.