I lead a very boring life,wish it was more exciting,
Not only do I have autism I suffer with bi polar disorder as well. I am going through a difficult time at the moment. I have some sort of routine not a good one but one that suits my life at the moment. I managed to go out for a meal with the Wi ladies and my sister, it was very noisy and I did struggle a bit but I so want to fit in and be normal I tried to shut out the noise.. I long to be able to have normal conversations but I do struggle I get very anxious when people start to talk to me and almost freeze, just glad my sister was there are she fills in the gaps when I struggle. I go out to bingo once a week, I sit on my own but people do talk to me which is nice but I struggle with holding a conversation my mind just goes blank. I just want to be normal.What is meant by masking? Is it hiding your autistic traits? Sorry if my post is a bit all over the place but I have been physically unwell and have had very little sleep and finding it hard to concentrate. I wish I knew what traits I have but my Doctor hasn't told me so I am just guessing,
