Hi everyone, thank you for accepting me to the group. I am really struggling with my Autism at the moment. I live alone and normally venture out to see my parents twice a week but do get dressed and check the post and occasionally venture out to get milk etc.
I was unwell during the Christmas period both physically and mentally, I had about a month where I was hit with multiple viruses bronchitis. My sister has divorced her husband and moved in with parents which means when I visit it's a very big change as she also has a baby.
About two weeks ago my new routine started of most days waking up at 9:30am, going on social media and then going back to sleep until 3pm. Then watching some TV, having dinner and going to bed around 10pm. Other days where I don't sleep during the day it takes me until 2pm to have a bath and I don't want to wear clothes anymore so I wear PJs.
Mum rings me every night at 6pm and asks how my day has been and what I've done and I am embarrassed. I have nothing to say really.
I am trying so hard to try and do some of my volunteering that I used to do but haven't done that for a year or so, things have slowly been going downhill for me. I am also struggling with binge eating.
I'm embarrassed. I also worry about what others think of me. If I am able to go out I can mask really well and because I am quite well spoken nobody knows how hard it is when I go behind shut doors.
Sorry this is all over the place, I'm just feeling really guilty at the moment.
