Things have been going downhill...

Hi everyone, thank you for accepting me to the group. I am really struggling with my Autism at the moment. I live alone and normally venture out to see my parents twice a week but do get dressed and check the post and occasionally venture out to get milk etc.
I was unwell during the Christmas period both physically and mentally, I had about a month where I was hit with multiple viruses bronchitis. My sister has divorced her husband and moved in with parents which means when I visit it's a very big change as she also has a baby.
About two weeks ago my new routine started of most days waking up at 9:30am, going on social media and then going back to sleep until 3pm. Then watching some TV, having dinner and going to bed around 10pm. Other days where I don't sleep during the day it takes me until 2pm to have a bath and I don't want to wear clothes anymore so I wear PJs.
Mum rings me every night at 6pm and asks how my day has been and what I've done and I am embarrassed. I have nothing to say really.
I am trying so hard to try and do some of my volunteering that I used to do but haven't done that for a year or so, things have slowly been going downhill for me. I am also struggling with binge eating.
I'm embarrassed. I also worry about what others think of me. If I am able to go out I can mask really well and because I am quite well spoken nobody knows how hard it is when I go behind shut doors.
Sorry this is all over the place, I'm just feeling really guilty at the moment.
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  • We settle for 'Fine'. And that's our problem.

    Learned helplessness, known in Japan as Hikikomori, confines us to solitude. So much potential wasted, due to a system which is designed to make us feel helpless.

    My generation, born between 1970 and 1990, became guinea-pigs for this.

    First of all, find your group. What interests do you have? Are there Groups that help young men, like yourself?

    It's hard, in this jungle, but you need a guide to enter it.

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  • We settle for 'Fine'. And that's our problem.

    Learned helplessness, known in Japan as Hikikomori, confines us to solitude. So much potential wasted, due to a system which is designed to make us feel helpless.

    My generation, born between 1970 and 1990, became guinea-pigs for this.

    First of all, find your group. What interests do you have? Are there Groups that help young men, like yourself?

    It's hard, in this jungle, but you need a guide to enter it.

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