• Replies 21 replies
  • Subscribers 88 subscribers
  • Views 1618 views
  • Users 0 members are here
Options
Related
Hints and tips
  • To quote someone's message, first select/highlight the relevant text, and then use the Quote button that appears
  • To "mention" someone, type @ followed by the start of the forum name, and choose from the list; that person will get a notification of being mentioned

How do you perceive how others perceive you, vs how they do actually see you?

IndigoMandala

So, 

I kind of perceive myself to others as a shadow. You know when Frodo puts the ring of power on? That's how i view and see in life. Almost like a ghost really....I started to think what people may feel like after a conversation with myself. Being in my presence. I think i would feel abit like......'whoaaah, something IS OFF with this guy!!!' Lol it's funny because I've never had a sense of 'myself' before really.

But, I wore a mask to kind of protect myself. 'Dont think about what other people think of you'......That was my mantra because no people cared about. I was unlovable (both untrue)....and boy did i care what others felt about me. All the goddam time.

Anyway, as i open up abit more. I can see how others can see me a little bit more.

Anyone else have similar thoughts? Or am i nuts lol

  • I have posted similar things many times on here.

    When I’m out in the world I feel as if I’m literally invisible or as if I’m watching events from afar, a parallel dimension or something similar.

    One of the things I remembered in therapy - I went through uni completely alone, no friends, studied alone, attended lectures alone, had lunch alone. Then in my final year I had to use a new computer lab and it wasn’t obvious how to activate the computers. One of my fellow students - who I had observed for years but never interacted with - noticed my difficulty and told me how to switch it on. I was shocked - I wanted to say “You can see me?”