Today I had my second session with therapist. In order to not hear hurtful comments about trendy diagnoses and seeking attention (as I previously heard) I decided to not mention anything about suspected autism. I shared with the doctor what diagnoses I have from previous professionals (depression, anxiety and Tourette) and told him about my problems- stress and overwhelm, crying, he asked me about my childhood so I told him and we talked about it. At the end of the previous appointment he asked me to sign a form inblanco. I did it and went home. Today afternoon after work I went there again. He handed me the form over but filled out and signed by him. It stated I have anxiety panic attacks and suspected autism. Today we talked about why I feel inferior to others. It turns out this doctor knows many autistic people and he said I show clear signs of autism. I showed him my pictures to help myself explain my experience. He scanned them and gave me back. Although I’ve been suspecting that, it was shock for me to see it written on a paper. Now I’m waiting for a letter from the health insurance company. I’m shocked it started so quickly. I don’t know what I feel or if I feel anything. I know in which clinic I would be assessed (there is only one such in the town) but other information- waitlists etc. I have no idea. Maybe I will ask next time. The doctor was shocked to see I had Tourette’s, he thought I imagined it myself and he also removed the depression. It’s all too much for today and next days.
