Medicinal Cannabis to Treat Autism Related Anxiety?

Over the last 30+ years I've tried various SSRI and a SNRI, an antipsychotic. I've also had several courses of CBT and a couple of sessions of talking therapy.

None of the meds or the CBT were effective in any way, the talking therapy gave me a chance to vent and explore my feelings and history, I found this most helpful but it was no more than a brief respite.

You can get Esketamine (the left hand version of ketamine) and cannabis privately in the UK but it's can be expensive.

I'm at an impasse , I'm considering asking for tDCS or TMS that might break the cycle. Some people say micro dosing psilocybin/Ketamine or MDMA but these are all illicit in the UK. There are medical trials but unless the drugs are declassified or reclassified we'll never get them.

Thank you. Much the same experiences on tablets. I think my new autism diagnosis gets me thinking again about it all but it's right scarey.

CBT's a funny one. I think looking back I people pleased. I didn't want to think the CB Therapist wasn't helping me so I think I ended up kind of towing the line and telling him what he wanted to hear.

I never worked out how to analyse one thought whilst simultaneously being bombarding with 300 more whilst you're doing it.

I was told by a psychologist that standard CBT isn't as successful with autistic people as our thought patterns aren't always linear (a-b-c etc), we may start at the same point but end up at e before revisiting b then back to a again. It can be modified apparently but not all practitioners do it.

When I did therapy I made the decision to just let go which was very difficult to start with, it became easier over time. It was quite freeing and I discovered things about myself that I'd previously buried or forgot.

Cheese, I thought?  Or weeding......or hoovering......or something?

Yes it would make sense, as long as its the noise only and not the balloon. And it's the sound of one being pinched at the end. Which would make it deflate more slowly of course. This is all what I assumed. Although the sound of a rapidly deflating balloon would add more enjoyment. 

Might be cos I don't start at A, but rather,  C.

Wait, what's this thread about!?

No ?!  That would be odd, oos......although a slowly deflating balloon noise would make sense, between the salt and tardigrade, I suppose.

And F#

Another Autistician said:

But I too often go from A to E via D, C, A, F and G too!

I like to mix in the smell of lavender, the colour orange, finely ground salt flakes, a tartigrade and the numbers 8, 15 and -32......when I transition from A to E.  You've seen my writing !

I'm hard on myself too, I was told not to discount my achievements no matter how small, which is really tough as all the day to day crap just goes by unnoticed.

Mindfulness and meditation are incredibly difficult, I've tried multiple times but I can't focus on tune out.

I often find myself mirroring and "reacting" the way they expect or want as I see it.

I'm hard on myself too, I was told not to discount my achievements no matter how small, which is really tough as all the day to day crap just goes by unnoticed.

Mindfulness and meditation are incredibly difficult, I've tried multiple times but I can't focus on tune out.

I often find myself mirroring and "reacting" the way they expect or want as I see it.